Thursday, July 30, 2009

'In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.'

When a quote like this starts to make sense, all is not quite well, is it? Will it be a good idea to talk about it on a public space? I don't know. But here I go. I have been feeling miserable lately. Nothing earth shattering, thank God, but it's just a feeling of nothing happening, part bored, part depressed, part frustrated. You know that bleak feeling, of nothing to look forward to, yeah that feeling. Strangely, retail therapy or gym hasn't upped my endorphin levels.

However, I am thankful that I have a home to take care of and a job to go to each morning. It would have been very insane otherwise, with all the free time, I would have killed myself just thinking and thinking more. Thinking is not a good thing you know. I know. But how can one not think, guess it's about exercising a control over what you think. It means being conscious and be aware of what to think. Complicated... but I guess I will eventually figure this out.

Now, not to belittle my state, here are few of the good symptoms
We (husband & I) went to Lifestyle, and came back without even checking out the women's section. (now, can u beat that?)

No 3 pm junk craving (I know, I know I am lucky, No under stress binge for me).

I have taken to cooking, big time.

While I am no Whiskey drinker, and while I am on quotes, I like this one - What Whiskey will not cure, has no cure for.


  1. There are two possible reasons that can cause disillusionments.The absence of work, or too much of it. In your case, it clearly appears to be the latter. If my day is divided into too many fragments, and I cannot afford too much time with any one, I feel a sense of incompleteness, a sense of directionless-ness. I presume, something similar is happening with you.

    The whiskey quote is good. Being a whiskey lover, I cannot help but mention this fact. Whiskey is an Irish term, that means "water of life." Translate that... Pranjal. A perfectly credible name for a son, and one doesnt even need to feel guilty about it. If I ever have one, I'm highly tempted to name him that.

  2. Lethargious, you are right, i have been working a lot lately, with way too many meetings in between, meetings those leave you confused and make you want to storm out of that glass door. I did not.. and guess that has left me feeling this way.

  3. Ritika, you write stuff I think. You're in my head and am happy for that :D :D